pauline tan

its another journey tat i need to chooseeeee

2010-01-13T01:12:00.002+08:00

its 2010 now...

time flies and finally a decade had just over..can u believe it? wat have u done ?
have u achieve something in the past 10 years? or u just walk past this 10 years?

here are some miserable feelings tat i have now in the beginning of year 2010..
i just hope and pray that God will open up ways and show me clearly where should i go.

confuseddd!!! i am very very the confusedddd....i just feel like letting all go and dun mind of anything that happen to the extend i even have the feeling tat ...i dun feel like geeting married ...n wats so good about it ? and at the same time...i myself cant imagine pauline tan would actually have this thought. i dun wan to know its whose fault. I've tried and am still trying or should i say We both are trying very hard.
At this current situation and people tat is around us,i really feel like giving up all and whatever dreams and wishes tat i used to have. Come to think of it, its all my wants. But since i am still not ready and willing to accept something lower than wat i wan...i would rather let them go. Why do i need to be so stress about it, rite?
Just wait till when i really have the ability then only go n build my dreams again. People will tell me by tat time its too late di.

I believe everyone has their life to live. There are no certain formula to live tat guarantee ur success in life. A person like me, who always follow from A-Z on wat to do to get the answer started to realize u still wont get the answer eventho u follow from the 1st step to the last step. That's another confusing part of my life. I've grown up with these teachings but actually in reality its not functional...????

Then someone say is the timing tat went wrong. Then i asked wat timing? wat tming do u think is right? everybody tells me its right...even i myself at one moment felt tat its right. But wat can i do with it? and becoz of certain deciding factors....i got to feel tat its wrong??? quite confusing rite? i also think its really confusing!!!

so now...to me is watever ...everybody just go do, think, act, say watever that they like. i'm just gona live my life and find and continue to find until i found tat something tat is really for me.

God, i really really really super duper need your help and guidance in my life. I really wan to see God's hand in my life. Help to me take the step of FAITH, go the place u wan me to go, do the things u wan me to do, even how extraordinary is it. I will do it for u, O Lord! and please take away watever things or people tat does not belong to Your will, tat is hindering me to c and hear from u, Lord...In Jesus Name, I pray, AMEN !!!

is another junction again :(

2009-07-31T01:18:00.002+08:00

i think a diary is my best fren ever...wil never ever forget u my dear.

me, pauline tan, is officially having a big burden in my heart. i dunno wat to do..where to head off next. Can someone tell me??? i've been thinking and thinking whether should i change job anot? i need another job which pays me higher. i need another job which suits my personality. A lot of people will tell me "go into sales la...tats where u can earn money. since u can talk so well, u sure can perform".... but when i think of it, YES..indeed ..y not? but where? which field? sell what? wat is my passion? i keep thinking what do i really like and wat are my passions? or should i just hantam anything and learn from there...aarrrghhh!!!! its just too hard to decide.

Its interesting to be a designer, glamorous name! but to be in the position with the pay, i dun think it can bring me anywhere. i like the job but the pay can't sustain me. i'm looking for something more. i have my target to achieve in 2 years time. i have so many things in my mind. Therefore, when one way doesn't brings u there. Am i not suppose to find another? am i too money minded?

Am i not suppose to work towards my goal? where can i get my next inspiration? all the while, i can say God really arrange and bless me with all the plans arranged for me. when i finish one, next will b ready for me to pick it up. now i felt that i'm really lost. RIGHT OR LEFT? TURN OR STAND STILL? wwaaattt am i suppose to do, God?
HOW ? WHEN ? WHERE ? i need answersssssss............

Am i goin to achieve my dreams in 2 years time? or will it be longer? i really scared that it will be delay coz i really dun c it comin. dunno y ....just dun have the confidence that it will happen. HELP ME, GOD !!!

the above matters had already been in my mind for quite a few months already and it had really bothers me and i cant really sleep well becoz of it. how? i really wan to sleep...i really need a break to think !!!!! THINK !!!!

happy mother's day

2009-05-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

bad feelings again???

2008-11-27T00:35:00.005+08:00

long time no c everybody ............ i think i need to find some one to talk to adi. Spending time in writing blog can help me release my stress n emotions since i can't find a pair of listening ears.

from now on, i will promise myself not to cry over matters like this. Its just another small matter in life that we got to go tru. There's many more people outside goin tru the same problem like me. Life still goes on no matter wat...y need to be so passive and be influenced by it so much..we just need to keep my emotion strong and focus on something else to pass tru difficult times...we need to grow..we cannot be feeling bad over matters like this again n again..if i have, i have....if dun have also it might be good...now i know y ppl like to be alone.i'm starting to become one too...learning how to become more individualistic and quiet...n eat less....i dun like myself to be name as dino becoz i eat alot ...so from now, i shall just eat a little. ...... stomach began to ache again..need to get some rest now...cya soon!!!

a lil Free time

2008-08-12T10:49:00.003+08:00

120808 : office : 1050am

status: hungry bcz we're on 40 days fast & pray. really hope that the clock will tick faster.

why is this gal blogging in the office while she complains that she is super bz....
reason it is bcoz of i'm currently not in my place and i dun have a pc to do my work. so instead i take it as a chance to drop some notes here.

Life had been really bz due to my new office renovation is SS19, just right opposite of toyota showroom. i target that we'll be in latest by 22th august, which is one day b4 my birthday. i foresee that it will be a super tiring week for me and it actually causes my excitement to fade off. how sad isn't it? i have been goin down to site everyday for the past 2 weeks to settle some technical challenge and to rectify it. thank God i have good working mates from isg to solve those problems which is very new to me and i've learned a lot from them. i really salute them...

Everything is movin on fine, joineries are almost done, ceiling and toilet works are done, glass panels are in too...wat is left are timber flooring, carpet, workstations and the last touch up which will spice up the space-lightings. i really hope it will be all done asap then i can really enjoy my birthday.

Besides the challenging n tiring reno works in office where i got to face mon-fri, i started teaching piano classes in a music centre near my house called Deciso, which means Determination. good name isn't it ? whether u r learning or teaching, determination is the key point to strive for the better. i had about 5-6 kids to teach, starting from 930am to about 2pm every saturday. wat i am struggling about is i got to sacrifice my morning sleep and my relaxing breakfast with my family. how sad.... :( its tiring to teach those hyper kids where all they know is banging the piano. well...here is another challenge i think. My day can only starts after 2pm...haih....half of a day gone!!!

Another early start of the day on every sunday is where i need to go for violin classes. i got to drive all the way to puchong and have a half an hour lesson and drive back here...it takes me in total 1hr & 30 mins. but my teacher said that i'm learning fast and she will continue to push me.....look, another pressure to bear. After learning violin for 2months, i can say that learning violin is harder than piano. Piano has black and white keys, up n down, right n left to determine the notes, and each key sounds the same everytime u played it. But wat is with violin is there are only 4 strings, G;D;A;E on a black fingerboard where you are suppose to press on the strings to get the sound of the note...the moment u r a bit off the strings or u r too front or too back, or u dun have the correct pressure on the strings......etc....THAT'S IT!!! squeakinnggg sharp NOISE are all u hear..not forgetting the bow. so the conclusion is::: LEARNING VIOLIN IS HARDER THAN PIANO. but i'm for it ...i need to learn n excel in it no matter what is takes. God, help me please!!!

After my bowing exercise, i got to rush back to church for service....then youth fellowship...
here goes my weekly schedule.... i felt tat i need a break soon....but dunno when :) still looking out for some getaway destination where i can just be me and chill....

have a great day everybody ...got to go c my boss now..

ciao !

who m i ?

2008-08-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

i just felt like a stupid stupid little rubbish letting somebody fire just for tat 3 mins late for advertisement b4 watching the dark knight....

why like tat 1?? really felt sad n disappointed over that conversation.. y is there people like tat ? am i meeting the wrong person ? just make me wonder who did i just talk to ? isit 'him'? i really doubt it now.

can somebody tell me the answer??????? or write me an ending asap .......... it feels bad hanging on the rope like this... gravity pulls u know...so either push me up all the way or let me down ....

wat in the world is happening around me ??? where do i find joy??? who can make me laugh from the bottom of my heart ? i wan to be me!!!!!! who is willing to accept PAULINE TAN YEN YIN ????????

Luna Bar

2008-07-31T23:28:00.003+08:00

Luna Bar Nite

At this one nite after a tiring work day ...kalvin plan to bring us to some place to just chill n chat

we went to LUNA bar since i've only heard of it but not been there

Here are some pictures... but unfortunately it doesn't turn out to be as nice as the place bcoz of my newly bought stupid camera. haih....saddening isn't it ?

i sort of like the place....but most people said tat the place is quite warm becoz its outdoor.

but thank God its chilly tat nite i went.

i 'd never seen kl tower tat close b4

you won't know how hard are all these clear pictures taken

look...this is one of the blured one

An Antique

2008-06-25T00:34:00.006+08:00

This is ....iss ...my most precious toy now .....

she is born in 1931...she is now 77 years old....can u imagine how season and beautiful her sound is ? is so soothing n calm .....she has matured voice. it makes u feel like u r in vienna when u hear her sing. its brilliant......i will at least spent half an hour with her everyday. Hope we can be good partners and bring u some nice songs in months to come.

iNTERchurch eVENT - SaLT & LiGHt

2008-06-17T22:57:00.003+08:00

Presented to you

SALT & LIGHT fm

by Kepong Baptist Church

thanks to all who supported to make this event successful

thanks to GTSD, PPBC, Life Assembly, Wesley Methodist, and SMTBM CF too

Glory to God too

Happy Hour April

2008-06-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

here are some older past tense post ...

should be 2 months earlier...but due to some complications, i can only post up pictures now.
me n colleagues went out for the 1st time. we planned many times and finally this is the No.1 night out with Woodsbagot stuff. Me and the back yard gang went to TGIF for dinner then to scarlet for a drink. We all had a great time together..wish to have the next one soon...planning tho:) had been quite bz and tiring due to the pushing rushing projects...

Makan chain day

2008-05-24T16:17:00.003+08:00

On the 19th May 08...

its an outing day for me n my family...
we had a makan chain day....non stop eating....1st we went to Oriental Palace for dim sum. Anybody who loves dim sum can go there n a try. Don't forget to order their roasted pork ''siu yok'' ....yuuummmmiiieeee and deeeelliiicciioouussss... and their mango sago is good too...

then later we went down to pavillion ....did some shopping. My mum bought some clothes for my sister in pumpkin patch, one of the kids shop that i like to go when i'm in aus. They have sizes which fits me...can u believe it ..i bought 2 cute t-shirts there b4. hhhahaha :P quite paiseh to go into the fitting room to try but i still did...hahaha!!!

After some shopping, my dad recommended us to try out the porridge and the ''yau zhar kuey" in food republic....Out of my expectation, its good...the "yau zhar kuey" is crispy and the plain white porridge is tasty...and it only cost RM 3.50..... you guys also need to go try it. We had fried kuey teow, ais kacang...etc..... SO FULL now ....

sad sad sad

2008-04-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

well...here comes another unhappy moments...
y is there so many unhappy moments comin on my way ....y y y ?? just dun understand..
i come back only 6 months, but there's so many so many :S sad n unhappy incident happening one after another. i really hope i can get away or go back to aus...
but i dun understand y is there so many things happening...did i changed? or did the people n things ard me changed?

now this situation is like forcing me to leave ...
i really dunno how to help it and solve it unless one leave. i dun wan to continue staying in this position where people dun welcome me and think that i snatch their precious away. say until i so ba dao... n its after such a long time, this is still an issue. it sort of leave me no choice but to step out so tat i would at least help lessen the pressure.

but...but ... but ... y me? y y y ?? y m i the one tat need to sacrifice? y ppl seems to snatch my happiness away from me? y ? didn't i hold any value after such a long time? just bcoz i'm not attached n they r .....n so wat?? iissshhhhh.......................thinking of it just pissing me off.

really sad about it ...bcoz i duno wat to do and duno wat should be done. everything also got a limit ok...keep asking me to tolerate and be understanding (chi : ti liang & bao rong)..... then who is goin to understand my feeling n patch me up. who ??? its just so so so unfair ?? situation is just getting worse and i seriously cant guarantee wat will happen eventho he is sure about it .... i'm really starting to doubt about it but i'm still holdin on to it tightly until the last moment. other than leaving, i cant think of any other way... so i'm really planning on UK asap.

i hope things will go better ......... :(

Rick's Cafe Casablanca

2008-04-28T00:05:00.005+08:00

2 weeks ago i went to rick's cafe casablanca with kal n james for a dinner....

i think this is only picture they have together...guys^^^

i like this pic....thx^^

No M00d day

2008-04-23T16:59:00.002+08:00

today is a no mood day....

NO MOOOOOODDDD :*(((((((9

sometimes i wonder in my life,
i dunno whether i am living my own life or am i living for others...
i always live to make people around me happy and please them as much as possible especially people i'm close with. sometimes it really tiring and stress...i have such n such plan in mind, but becoz of this n tat or to avoid people's mulut busuk or to jaga their face......i cant do it. i felt iisssshhhhh....~~~~ u know? frusss... n iritated by it. And many a times, we r tied up with commitments which have leads us to no where...again, its another tiring game.

wat m i living for? erhmm, i think i shouldn't ask this question coz i know i wana live my life for Jesus, i wana do wat he wants me to do, just tat sometimes i got blur and confused and irritated by things happening ard me............... but thank God, i have Him beside me. In lowly times like this, i know He is holding me.

Hope everything will goes on smoothly according to Your will, Lord...

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when i'm stress i feel like doin :
+ drinking a cup of latte under the morning sun light with the cooling morning breeze
+ watch a movie (only comedy and chic show with happy ending, no horror movies)
+ go shopping (dun mind window shop)
+ chilling with my frens on a couch with a bottle of red wine
+++ etc..................

LEFT OR RIGHT???

2008-04-14T23:06:00.003+08:00

hey pauline...

just wondering wats goin on with u ....and wat r u thinking? wats in ur mind?

mind oh my mind .....
heart oh my heart .....
are u thinking correctly ??
are u dreaming the right dream?

then my heart say:"how am i suppose to know? u're giving me too many choices? too many things u wana do..." how ???" .............tell me how???

i find that age is catching up.. i'm 23 this year. many people would say..haih ...u're still young..
but i felt that time pass so quickly. how am i gona achieve my plans in 3 years time. the more i think of it, the more i c it not coming. the more i plan for it, the more i will get disappointed till a point i dunno wat to do. why is there so many choices in life that we need to decide. why not God just put us where He wants us to be or write us a plan book....inside will have information of who ur life partner goin to be, what r u goin to study and wat u goin to be...wat job u gona do..which company n all.... wat hardship u gona face..n etc.....but i know God doesn't want us to be robots...

i just dun like where i got to let go something to go for another but at the same i duno wats best to do ....izit good to let go or i should just stay put and let time leads me wherever. i'm scared .....i'm scared of too many wat if..... wat if i stay, wat if i go ?? no one will or even can tell me wat to do n how to decide now. END UP....i'll still be left with "u like lo....its up to u, follow ur heart..."
but if i let go, i felt really wasted...all my hard work --- " HEART work" will be just 'ppooommppp' no more, no where to be used again...i feel very 不舍得....eventho i c so many things i dun like inside, but i still like the process of it where u get to see the result of ur work built. but i know i cant stay long here.... so y waste time ? y waste effort ? y not just go n focus on wat i will settle down with rite???? yes anot? no point becoz of i felt 浪费 and 不舍得而留下. as i said, i'm not tat young anymore...so..... should make up my mind di.

God!!!!! help me God, show me Lord, tell me where to go and wat to do ......i dun wan to take the wrong step. pllleeeaaasseeee ...............

9 WORDS WOMEN USE

2008-04-02T15:22:00.002+08:00

9 WORDS WOMEN USE _____________________________________________

One day, my long lost primary class mates sent me an email about women ....i find it quite true. Are WOMEN's feeling easy to be understand? But some people say women are complicated..Are we complicated creature ??

Like the word 'fine'.... i think i used it quite often when i want to end a harsh discussion with kal...
and when i say 'go ahead' with a restless tone after a situation where i can't insist on my way anymore, i meant suah la...watever la, just go ahead and do watever u like, i dun even care anymore..
sometimes i think men need to use their heart to understand women more when we(women) are trying our best to please u ..DON'T take things for granted, and misuse our leniency. When we show care and love, treasure it, appreciate it and in return, show her more love and care.

this is it ::

1. Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a 1/2 hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever: Is a women's way of saying F@!K YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.

NeW Youth SchEdUle

2008-03-31T23:28:00.003+08:00

Hey KBC youth,

Here is the hottest and newest schedule for aPriL & MaY .........

iT includes the list of interesting programs, the praise and worship team schedule, and our lovely mates who's celebrating their birthdays this 2 months ...( remember to wish them oh )

The Highlight of the month is MOTHER'S DAY - which is gona be the 2nd week of May.....
Youth is gona incharge of doing something for them .....any ideas???

done by : Kalvin n Pauline

Life in Woodsbagot, KL

2008-03-28T15:13:00.004+08:00

Life in WB ...

the back yard team ....
::::____ Me (Pauline), Nutty Nad, Farah Marcy, Syamei & Justin the samurai ______
Note:: the most interesting team in WOodsBagot, KL

work as usual to be ..............erhmm............how should i put it....
but overall....if i would grade it ...its C....
but the people here are awesome buddies....luv them~~~

THE 29TH OF FEB

2008-02-29T09:35:00.004+08:00

Happy 29th of February 08!!!

this date is a day to remember

A DAY that we should make it memorable...

bcoz it only happens once in 4 years time!!!

to all my frens, its my plesure knowing u, whether u r in msia or australia....

HAVE a Nice one ......

i can't remember wat i was doin on this date 4 yrs ago ...hehe!!!

so i think i should treausre this special day more...

making it a happy one

and wanting to thank the Most High God for letting me past this date again.

GONG xi and ValenTines

2008-02-19T12:17:00.003+08:00

Well well well....

Its Chinese new year ....gong Xi GoNG xI!!!!

This year my chinese new year is like ...so so la...just alrite...but still had a great time.
we had family reunion n all the usual thingy ....like balik kampung, go ard to "bai nian", eat and play. One good thing about cny is u get to see friends n relatives at least once a year. haha :P
this year angpao money increases...yay!!!! this is also the 1st year celebrating cny after i started work...need to get back to work as soon as it's not a public holiday.not like in school days...we have cny break.

n3Xt is

Love is in the air!!!

This is one of the most gorgeous valentines that me n kal ever celebrated out of the 8 years.This Valentines is unforgetable, memorable, fantastic, wonderful, precious, enjoyable, rejuvenating, relaxing and lovely. We had many first encounters experience on that day. We also did alot of things and go to lots of places which we never go b4 together after so long.....Hope we will have more fresh n exciting stuff ahead to spice up our relationship...

Wish all of u out there Happy Valentines!!!

me n my darling

sort of love this picture.....

just some of my cool shots ....:P

2008

2008-01-30T00:19:00.001+08:00

well.....january is goin to comes to an end!! its already 29th ....wow !! isn't it fast ??? of all the 12 months, 1 month had gone in just one click...

January had been a bz month for me. Alot to prepare for youth fellowship, lots of meeting n discussion goin on ..... basically occupied all of my shopping saturdays :( i miss shopping n chilling out on saturday ... i hope it will be better in the coming months.

i've met up with some of my frens from australia recently. It was really fun ... to meet up with them...bring back alot of good memories there.

cny is coming !! yay !!! angpows , angpows, n more angpowss!!!!!! i'm actually quite excited about it... hope i will have lots of fun. But i plan to go down to singapore b4 jan n vera fly back to australia. i really hope i can ....

will update more later...........^^

Never ending "wants"

2008-01-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

life Life LiFe.........

I went out with my best buddy past few days for a drink ...
we chat alot about life and how's life goin to be ...n wat is the fact in life which we need to accept eventho we dun agree with it ...or rather to say to have one eyes close ....and to either take this or that ....u cant have all .....

life is always full of choices...and alternatives....we always need to make decisions ...WISE DECISIONS!!!! in the beginning of ur life, parents will help u in making decision which they think best for u....then slowly until 17 yrs old, we need to make decision on wat course we wana take, which college that we wana go? which uni we wana enter? which country i wan to finish my studies? then after this, what job should i do ? which direction should i head? which job offer should i take after so many interviews? which area should i work ? local ? outstation ? all sorts la.....just never ending.....

then u start putting standards in ur life ......
like how much u wana earn a month? by how many years old, i hope to have this amount of $$$ to buy house, car and other life commitment stuff.....when i wana get married? wat type of marriage u wan? wat level of branded stuff u wana carry n all ......
isn't all this floating in ur mind?

its all about wat u wan in life? its all about wat u wana achieved in life?
but i really wana give my life to God who is in control of everything ..... Hasn't He promised to provide me with wat is best for me? then why why why am i still worrying about all these??
it's just too stressful to think about all these myself n keep filling myself with questions that i also cannot answer.....

Christmas Dinner 07

2008-01-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

i think i'm really really late for this updates....
it had been bz inviting the new year in .....or i should rather claim myself lazy .......
but i know i need to discipline myself to update it .....so that u can enjoy some pretty and happening things happening in my life ....thru the last bit of 2007

me n my best friends had our christmas eve dinner in one of the restaurant in , Bangsar ..... (dun wana mention the name) . we're attracted by their menu and the price that they offered. But they really disappoint us badly until we dun even want to give them a 2nd chance. If i would rate them from 0(bad) - 10(good). Service - 0, Food - 1, atmosphere - 3... u know how long i waited to get a spoon to eat my dessert??? by the time they deliver my spoon, the ice cream are all melted.... isn't it DUH ????@!!! But after all this unsatisfaction that we got, we requested for a 50% discount on the bill...and the good thing is we got it !!! hahaha!!!!

so...since we didn't have a nice dinner ...we head on to denise the wine shop in one bangsar for some drink and waited for the countdown... the place is cozy n nice ....nice place to chill with lovely frens ...we played some stupid game ..but it was fun .....we had feel bottles of wine tat nite. I think i gona go there more often .....

MaLLs Marathon

2008-01-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

In this Christmas Season, i basically went to all the malls in kl and pj to admire the decorations that had been set up. It really builds the atmosphere. Nice ....nice ....i can feel Christmas is really coming!!!

i find this christmas very warm to me ....
look at this cottage house built in the curve ...
doesn't it give u the warmness of a HOME ?

this is in pavillion ...i was there to catch one of their performance by people who are dressed in old classic time costume.....i love it !!!

this one is in One Utama...still my favorite hang out place ...

can u c the big giantic nutcraker stage .....its amazing!!! very nice ...his head and his hands can move too ....i'm just so fascinated about all the christmas deco that has been put up ...
IT'S REALLY THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR!!!

Joyce 21st Birthday

2007-12-28T13:08:00.000+08:00

i've not updated my blog for longggg....so i will begin from my younger sister's 21st birthday ...
we went to this restaurant in bangsar called FRANKFURT HOUSE... they serve german knuckles ..whoever who like German food ....i will recommend u to go there.

joyce with her birthday cake

my mum, joyce and me

my lovely family

joyce and joshua
the cute couple

me n kal

joyce and me

c ....they serve big mug of beer....i love it

Life now .........

2007-11-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

well...

life to me is monotonous now ..
the canvas has only black, white or gray.....
where is the Pauline fill with colors? isn't life suppose to be colorful and interesting ???
y do i always yearn for things tat i wouldn't get...
am i asking too much of what i should get ?
what is the standard of my satisfaction ?
or has my standard raise ?
did i changed ?

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GoldEn oLdEn Days Back thEN

2007-11-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

If you are Msia's 80s baby,read through this, we grew up watching Transformers, Thundercats, Woody Woodpecker,Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask, NinjaTurtles, Voltron, Baja Hitam,Ultraman n not forgettin POWER RANGERS n BUGS BUNNY!!!and anderra yippa mice? care bears too ....:), McGyver ?

had to brush our teeths during recess at primary school? had to hold plastic cups, line up with your classmates side by side and start brushing our teeths, at some open area... or maybe near some drain??

do you still remember that we had 'dentist' rooms where we had to have our teeths check?

not to forget our 'program minum susu' in primary school.. everybody is suppose
to buy like cartons of milk that costed 30 cents.. and you would see everyone drinking it everyday...its d UHTmilk...

the teachers who would want to punish us must use yellow rulers to hit us on
our palms?? 1 metre length..

that a bowl of mihun soup or some souponly costed 50 cents at the school canteen...

went to some sundry shop near the school or to the 'roti' man waiting outside our
schools so that we can buy junk food like chickedees, mamee, ding dang with some toys in it, 'Ti Kam', ice-cream and we would play games like monopoly, uno,
old maid, and all other card games like that...

another fun time would be during Pendidikan Jasmani. the boys would play football while the girls would play netball... and it would be like we were playing in the world cup...we are to jump into the brown guni bag n jump from one end to another, turn ourselves using hullahoops.....

but of course. the best would be main guli, batu seremban, bottlecaps, ice-
cream sticks, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-three', Cops and Robbers, main kejar-kejar duduk,getah... and for the not so active, those kind of 'book games' where we would use buku latihan to draw and ask our friends to play...

do you remember the ice-cream tubes which are actually ice and colouring
that are sold for 10 to 20 cents.. the colourful ones.. where you usually bite
off the top to glup it down.orange tastes b best..(pop-ice)

what about days when we felt like doing naughty things such as folding papers so small to make 'lastik' amd shoot each other... how about throwing chalks?? - only done by notty boys...

back then, micheal jackson was just turning white.. and still had albums coming out.. compared to CD's, we were listening to tapes that sold for RM9.90...

well, are we all getting older or what?

1) if you understand what you have read and you are smiling...

2) we have friends from school that are already married...

3) we shake our heads everytime we see high school students fussing about
their handphones in school..

4) we don't hang on phone with our friends for hours a day talking about nothing...

5) when we meet back with our friends from time to time, we feel excited and
happy talking about old times, the funny 'adventures' or stories that we experienced as a kid..

last but not least, that when i read this, it makes me think of all the
happy & sad memories that you have experienced when i was still a kid.

time flies really really fast .....i really miss those days .....how i wish i could just teleport back into time and go through it once more ....

mAkE ur LiFe MORE mEaNiNGful and PrEcIoUs

2007-11-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

I've read this article that is written by George Carlin after his wife died recently ....

Read what he says ......

Actually there are so many things happening in life till a point that we don't realize it or felt that the world is actually moving fast.... faster than u can imagine.

What a difference a sad event in someone's life makes.

This article is something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate and i felt it really true and personal.

A Message by George Carlin:

We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

oCTober Fest

2007-11-03T16:07:00.000+08:00

October Fest!!! 26-28th October 07

fun experience ....remind me of my trip to sydney with choi and the gang ....-in the restaurant called Lowenbreau

you need to use 2 50cents coin to buy one of these....cheap rite ..
imagine the q....... people start lining up at 430pm where it actually starts at 5pm. and everything were sold out by latest 630pm .........WOW!!!

miserable birthday

2007-10-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

a story about a miserable present ::::25th October 07

One morning, as cactus go to work as normal as another day, his boss suddenly calls him in and talk to him with few more other seniors. The conversation includes lots of question and answer. even until one point he rather don't say but to take it. Many sensitive issues are being questioned and many feelings are involved.

Cactus leave the room fill with disappointments and confused. But still staying calm .....
With long suffering, he stays till the time he supposed to and went back. Can u feel how miserable cactus was? all i can say is miserable ............. do it or not to do it ???

After pondering upon it, finally he type a letter and sent it off the next day. Leaving the office with a confused mind but partly relieved because its all over.

So cactus asked himself, is this a present from God just right before his birthday ???

a driizzzyyy morning

2007-10-24T09:17:00.000+08:00

In a cold and drizzy morning, got to pull myself out of the bed, throw my boster out of my bossom, freshen up in the toilet and get dress, put on some make up and go ...now sitting at the office, feeling reluctant to start work..... and...........here goes another day....

this is called working life!!!!!

KurA rEsTaUrant

2007-10-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

a day out with my family to Kura Restaurant in One World Hotel ....

beautiful ambience, cozy and comfortable.....should go there and have a feel of it .....

slowly enjoy your meal and chill .......~~~~~

i like this lights in one world hotel

My niece birthday

2007-10-20T17:14:00.000+08:00

... Ms. Ashley Low Ching Yee..........turns one on Oct 6th...

Here's her birthday cake ...how beautifully done with winnie the pooh decoration. So Swweeettt..... all sugar ...can't really eat tat. but the carrot cake inside taste nice tho. hahaha!!! but the cake is so so so lovely..for this lovely girll.....the centre of attraction of d'day!!!

she is so so cute u know ....with the pinkiieee dressss

u know how much this cake cost?? RM 300 ++ leh......just for a birthday cake.....
marvelous rite???

do u ever???

2007-10-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

do u ever felt sorry ??

do u ever feel guilty ??

do u ever feel bad after things happened and u just cant help it or wipe it off ??

do u have the deepest secrets that u never tell anyone b4 ?

...... but at the same time u felt that u need to tell it off bcoz its just unfair ........

???????? wat can u do ???????

sometimes things happened out of my control...i'm stunt and.... my feeling just relates to it and reacts to it ....... my soft, weak and gentle heart are just embrace by atmosphere tat time.

Our LiFe Is always in control...

2007-10-12T00:27:00.000+08:00

i'm thinking is life in msia so boring that i've nothing to blog about?
well....life in msia is not boring but there's nothing special about that i have to write in down....and out of sudden........HERE COMES SOMETHING!!!!

i was having my break since july, officially mid of june 07..since then i started to enjoy to the fullest from melbourne till i'm back in msia. when i got back, i told my parents i dun wan to look for a job 1st, but after 2 weeks they started pressuring me, i used 2 weeks to get my port folio done and start sending out resumes. i was quite worried that i will not get a job tat soon coz ppl dun leave the company at the end of the year. everybody is waiting for bonus, and most project close at the end of the year. But ...soon after i receive a call from woods bagot - one of the company in my list which i just randomly sent. (check it out on www.woodsbagot.com.au). They asked me to go for an interview on thursday 11am.

i was actually quite shock to receive their call....and frankly speaking i was not prepared for it. i'm not ready for an interview...has not been to one for a long time. i was quite worried but thank God i went through it !

i went to the interview today in woods bagot, bangsar. AND I'M HIRED!!! (not fired, ok?) i had my interview with the MD .... he is a nice person who encourage u to continue learning and growing, he gives u opportunities and chances to explore in designs and even other woods bagot branches all over the world. that is wat i am looking for ..... few countries that i'm interested in is 1st- of coz australia, 2nd - dubai ....or london. Everything just went smoothly ad he is impressed.....

i believe God is in control of everything....every little thing...He knows my desire, He knows wat m i looking for to kick start my career ...and He has prepared one perfect place for me. I pray that God will continue to bless me to excel in this company and one day His will to be done. i really thank God!!!!

and again ........

... His GRACE is Sufficient for me, His STRENGTH is made perfect when i'm weak....

last moment in melbourne

2007-09-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

the last last moment in melbourne.....in tullamarine, melbourne

1st Malaysia life post

2007-09-20T22:42:00.001+08:00

enough of melbourne.....

may be its time for me write about how m i and msia...

i believe everybody will be wondering how is pauline? what is this girl doing back there?
erhmm...... may be i stucked myself too deep into melbourne until i can't pull myself out of that wonderful city. i believe everybody will agree with me, rite? days are hot here, my feet grow big n red until i cant fit in my shoes... the pores on my face grows bigger, i need to shower 3 times a day bcoz of the humid weather, i can't really fall a sleep at nite...n all ......hhehehe!!! so much complains from this gal yea? this was the 1st 2 weeks back in kl. give me some time alrite?

my daily activities now are :::: wake up - eat - surf - pick my sister up - eat - home
or wake up - facial or back treatment by joyce - eat - shop - hang out

waiiiitttt...dun straight away say that i'm a lazy gal ....in the middle of all these things, i will spare some time to do my port folio, preparing to go for an interview anytime. its almost done...
actually i'm quite reluctant to face the fact that i need to go out into the field and start my career. i dun like the fact tat i'm a degree graduate but there are alot of things out there that i still dunno. it will be really stupid rite?? may be i got some phobia towards id bcoz of the way my id frens work, even kal himself....really scares me sometimes....the more i know about the field, the more that i wan to run away from it... is tat wat i really wan to do ???

to my melbourne frens :::

i really miss Melbourne alot...i miss u guys alot....i still remember all of u deeply...
i really wish i can go back to melbourne whenever i like...eventho i cant stay there for long, but at least i can still hang out with u guys. i miss my stadium apartment, i miss my room, i miss my housemates.....i miss the cakes and coffee there, i miss the weather there, i miss the trams, the exhibitions, nandos, and ......the shopping there - supre, dotti, forever new, guess, cotton on, nine west, jeanswest, 7 angels, myers, david jones... and everything !!!! of coz on top of all that i also miss cell group, blast and mpc alot....
after i come back here, i know there are lots of things that i need to re-adjust back and re-adapt. the hardest i think is the msian culture....cant really comment much on it ....sensitive!!

though there are so so so much of d' MISS ... BUT i'm quite comforted becoz i'm with my family,my daddy mummy, my sisters, especially joyce ...heheh!!can get excellent facial...nice rite??and....also to be with my life committed partner, things are really different when u do things with the one u love. i'm happy to meet my buddies of my life - mh, yh, lyn....u gals are the best!!! i'm happy that i dun need to think of wat to cook, dun need to carry heavy groceries, dun need to clean my house as much .....and 1 more thing, dun need to hand wash my clothes...hhahaha!!! but i'm glad that i've gone tru all these myself b4 ...

i believed that God will bring me to the company that He wants me to work in and learned from it. i will start my job hunting very soon.... hope tat i'm prepared for it !

My testimony

2007-09-20T02:00:00.000+08:00

some words to leave behind ....

God is great! God is wonderful! God is marvelous!

It is ALL by His grace, love and strength.

He had opened my eyes and helped me realise once again that His loving arms would just be right beside me whenever and wherever. I was weak, lonely, sad and pessimistic, but my loving God sent MPC and BLAST people to be around me. I really felt loved, cared for and supported.

My heart was really touched to see young people having the heart and compassion to serve God. I was tired, drain out and always wanted to quit in serving Him. But my spirit was really lifted up and encouraged by the fire that stirred their heart for the lost.

I can see people here are really doing things FOR GOD by faith. “Faith comes through hearing, and hearing by the word of God”. I believe this is what God wants me to see and learn in Australia – to be refreshed and to regenerate myself to serve Him wholeheartedly.

When we’re serving Him zealously, be reminded always to take a moment of silence, be still and enjoy His sweet and awesome presence.

MSF winter camp 2007

2007-09-14T20:02:00.001+08:00

winter camp ......24th -26th August 2007
the 2nd time i join MSF for winter camp .....hooray!!!! but this year is for 3 days 2 nites in Howqua (at the foot of mt buller) it was a wonderful campsite....really big....the place was also nice!

this camp was just one day b4 i leave ....actually it's quite rush for me to pack up everything and do those last minute shopping. But it was alrite la ...

i enjoy it alot....i'm happy that i can spent the last moment with them bcoz there are really one important part of my life. i really miss them alot alot alot ....i hope i can continue to be with them. eventhough there might be some times that really irritates me or make me frustrated ...but i still enjoy all these happy and upset moments. i'm happy to c people grow, i'm happy to c people changed to the better, and i'm happy that i experience alot with them. ALL these moments will be with my memory forever.

sometimes i think u'll treasure more when u know u gonna leave...:(:(

this is wat 3 of us like to do whenever we have a camera ..heheheh!!!

alex, me, keat

me and keat in the campside

we're flying ...

i dunno wat m i doing.....

this is one of the game that we played..it was really funny!!

they did a suprise birthday celebration for me
and its the worst ever thing i had on my birthday
yiiissshhhh......
sweet experience
with custard cake....

hahahaa!!!!

'finally my "REAL" CAKE

SOME EMO MOMENTS WITH MY LOVELY FRIENDS

some pictures with fantastic frens b4 everything ends

this is kaming ....he got the retro look....hehehe!!!
talented director...hope can work with him again...

me with the women

d'musician team...

me n cecil...
i wanted to buy this shirt to show my dad
hahahaa! better not ~~~~

the nite before

2007-09-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

the nite b4 i left melbourne...ben, jason, hong, victoria, jake and ian came over and we had some drinks..it was really fun and i miss all of them...( we finished one chivas bottle ) crazy drinkers!!! hahaha!!!

moments with nary

2007-09-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

here some crazy moments i have with nary ( the cute korean gal ) .... in the middle of waiting .....

sad that i'm leaving

i dunno wat are we doing there ??

acting stupid???

but it was fun !!!

22nd birthday in Melbourne

2007-09-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

on my birthday ....23rd august 07

with wonderful housemate, there are just wonderful people ... they are the best ever housemate i lived... we only lived together around 6 months but we felt that we had known each other for so so long time. we cooked, buy groceries, clean, vacum, eat, laugh, cry like a baby also ...hahhaa!!! very good experience.....love it !!!

we had dinner in blue fire, docklands .....
we ordered one bottle of Riesling, Brown Brothers...all of us each one get one glass. we drank slowly in the beginning ..but i notice both of their faces start turning in a big red tomato and is burning hot...hahaha!!! so funniiieee..... so ...both of them din help me alot in drinking that nite. i almost drank the whole bottle. they both averagely only had one glass. doinkkkyyaauuu!!!!

they went and arrange something with the waitress.... which is to bring the cake out for me after i come out from toilet. but then another clumsy waitress brought the cake without the candle. then i saw eelaine talking to the waitress ...then the waitress walked away with a cake??? then i was wondering did we order tat???hahaha!!! then ee said ...they deliver wrongly. hahaha!!! not long after that ....the more clever waitress brought the cake to me from the back...so sweet!!!

it was a very satisfying meal....with my lovely daughters, with their lovely gift to me ....
after that, we took a lot of pictures outside b4 goin back..hahaha!!!

cheers to our frienship!!!

enjoying the wine ....

our entre....really small.hahaha!!delicious..

here comes the main....seafood !!

another one!!! steak....

my birthday suprise .... making my 1st wish this year....guess wat will it be???

lastly our dessert....

they are the best housemate ever!!

after such a full meal burning fats in the cold freezy day

probably the last fun shooting time with my daughters...

mama love u all oh !!!

thanks alot.....

all my sweeettt pressie i receive from all my friends..
you are important in my life
meant a lot to me
you become part of my life
will always treasure and cherish it
....... forever .........

thanks to swinburne cell members, the most happening cell ever... my wonderful housemates cum daughters, cute and pretty.... my new fantastic friend - matthew, will c u back in msia again i hope... my very special and "grouse" (in french, duno whether i spell it correctly) fren - iiun thor, thanks for all the memories in melb in this 6 months ..... and my forever guy who loved me dearly and also .... the love of my life, kalvin.

the LAST LAST MEMORIES

2007-08-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

LAST BIT in MELBOURNE

1) PHANTOM OF THE OPERA

BRAVO !!! BRAVO !!! BRAVO !!!!
a must go thing in melbourne.....its FANTASTIC...!!! VERY FANTASTIC.....
the stage show, the cast , the song, then story, the stage, the props, the costume
ALL OF IT IS BRILLIANT ...
if i would have a chance to go again ....i will........
the moment u hear them sing, ur heart will start to melt ......very impressive...!!!

2) Steambooaaatt
we'd a steamboat session in my house among the few of us... its really a fun and unforgettable nite...thanks for all who come! wil mis u guys alot ...this is probably the last meal i cooked for them ....:(

3) Breakfast by the river

4 ) last sunday in melb

went to tennis competition with ian in hawthorn ...had lunch ....and went back to city ...saw this interesting hanging in fed square .....went to botanical garden.

5 ) CHICKS RULES ....ending soon ....

my routine conversation with customer ::

me : hi there, how r u ?
mr.A : good, fine....
me : wat would u like?
mr.A : good, fine....
me : wat would u like?
mr.A : can i have a quater chicken pls?
me : with chips? or with other sides like spicy rice, coleslaw, corn, salad, cous cous...
mr.A : with chips
me : would u like to upsize ur drinks and ur chips?
mr.A : no...just regular will be fine
me : wat drink would u like, sir?
mr.A : just coke...or .....ice tea
me : ice tea is a $1.20 extra, izit alrite?
mr.A : yea...
me : woould u like to have it here or to take away ?
mr.A : have it here...
me : its $10.60 all together...and here is ur table number
take a seat and we will deliver to u shortly
thank u
mr.A : ---walks away....

will i continue to be a hot chic...hahhaha!!!!
thanks to all colleagues and my good boss....

leaving

2007-08-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

there's not many days left in melbourne...weeks after weeks....soon its end of the week again...:(

time will just leave u behind...i will really miss the time i had here......

well....sometimes u just got to accept the fact and put it infront of ur mind and not keep it behind.

ExHIbiTiOns ard Melbourne

2007-08-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

this 2 weeks b4 class commences in swinburne, we went around melbourne a lot, visiting lots of exhibitions in different gallery. All are really nice....This is one of the exhibitions that i had been in federation square about the FALL.....

the one thing i love about melbourne is there are alot of these art exhibitions and collection all around....see how important is the value of art. one good thing is ....FREE!!!

pipe organ performances

2007-08-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

the other day, we went to an pipe organ solo performance in melbourne town hall.

the pieces that were played are all from the barouque period ...those old kind of music .... its kind of nice to hear but it get boring after a while...making me fall alseep. Suprisingly, we are the youngest there in the whole entire hall. All are old people ....grandpa and grandma.... hahaha!!! we felt so out of place. but i've not go for recital for long time adi ...so its good !

Organ -ic Lunch

Tuesday 7 August 2007 1pm

by Harold Fabrikant

Programme includes pieces by composer below :

Bach Johann Sebastian

Scarlatti, Domenico

Walcha Helmut

Karg-Elert, Sigfrid

Franck, Cesar

Tournemire, Charles

Lanlgais, Jean

partying nite - just the 3 of us

2007-08-14T00:18:00.000+08:00

we had a wonderful nite the other day ....just 3 of us ....i enjoyed alot ....in lavish

me n eelaine

vera n me

me and me

ee.yy.vera infront of the mirrors

vera.me.yy

wont let it go

in the middle of tram track, docklands

TIME LEFT IN MELBOURNE

2007-08-09T22:57:00.001+08:00

melbourne oh melbourne....

beautiful place to be ....
nice place to live....
friendly people to meet...

Here is one of the quote that my fren gave me, saying :

The supply of time is a daily miracle
You wake up in the morning and lo!
Your purse is magnificently filled with 24 hours of the
unmanufactured tissue of the universe of life and
It is yours!
The most precious of your possessions
....................................................................................

few more days left ....:(
i really sad and confused.....
my heart is painful
my heart is heavy
its really tearing me down
i cant take it ...tears overflowing my heart
can't accept to know that i goin back so soon
its just less than 2 weeks.....GOSH!!!
can u believe it ...how time actually flies...

all u friends out there.....i really miss u all
missing u all lots and lots...
nowadays when i c them everyday
it will have flash back in my mind of the times that we'd gone through
the joy and laughters, the wonderful food that we had, the beautiful places that we visited..
shops after shops....melbourne shopping is fantastic ....luv it !!!

i really want to stay here ....
continue seeing all my frens
hanging out with them ....seeing them go through their final semester and graduate
how wonderful ...... but.........but....
where can i find the chance?

i followed ian and other classmates of mine last semester to site visit...
seeing them measuring the site, taking pictures of the site, discussing what need to be done, what are pin-ups and stuff ....makes me miss class so much....
when i have these things on hand, i will complain alot....y do i need to do all this...issshhh...
but now when i dun even have any, i felt lost and jealous....how???

anyway i'm gona try sending my resume to bates smart and try my luck ....God, plss bless me yea ...if its ur will, let all be done!!! i trust u God !!!

bits and pieces

2007-08-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

different me in different time of the day doing different things enjoying every moment i have in melbourne

me on the way to st kilda road on one fine saturday

me with the hat in chapel

me in ian's gucci shed in spicy fish restaurant..not too bad rite?

and some food to share with all

happy day 07.07.07

2007-08-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

on the 7th july 2007 -07.07.07 -

u all must be thinking y this gal write something which happened one month ago ....too many things happened each day and i dunno which one to write 1st ...so i just write according to the pictures i have...abit kelam kabut (comfused )..anyway its just for memories of delicious food i ate and wonderful place i went.

the 1st happiest moment in melbourne....
its all paid for this morning when i log in to check my results....
in a beautiful sunny morning with the blue sky,
i got my fabulous results....3HD and 1D....that moment was just unforgetable
ALL GLORY TO GOD !!!

i went out with ian that morning. we had a walk from my house to docklands wanted to go for the ice skating thing ..but i after we went there, we were not so interested anymore so we went for brunch in a restaurant beside the dock....it looks expensive...but its actually quite affordable..not too bad ! i was so so so happy that i just wan to pamper myself with some good food. we had focaccia if i've not mistaken...quite big ....taste was not too bad as well. i think watever i eat on that day also will be delicioussss ...hehehe!!! its something that i will never forget .... as if the day is celebrating for me too .....

hot chocolate after meal -delliiiicccciiioooossss ........

T3r3s@ FaRewell

2007-07-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

Farewell with teresa

After the bz weeks since beginning of july, i've missed 2 weeks cell group and church. I'd not seen teresa for almost 3 weeks and suddenly when i got back and settled everything, i heard that teresa is gonna go back china for 2 months next wednesday. So we arranged a makan with her b4 she leaves. This will be my last time meeting teresa.....cannot take it ...its too sudden...i havent been hanging out with her alot yet n it will be the last time i see her. How can it be ? i really feel sad and 不舍得。She is a very sweet, lovely and gentle girl..we give each other so many hugssss b4 leaving...... :(:(:(....how sadd!!! But i hope she will have a great time there in china and let go of things tat happened and get up and regain her confidence and clear her conscience to do great things when she's back in melbourne. teresa, i will pray hard for u yea ....love u ...i know u can through His Grace...!!!

But the meal that nite was really nice...we had korean bbq in a restaurant near my house. The food and restaurant was fantastic....the waiter and wine and ice cream there are NO.1 too...hahaha!! Vera is so so so attracted by the korean leng zai who is serving us. hahaha!!! She keep asking us to go there again...:P....So as her mama, i need too...one day...

aRouND MeLbOURne

2007-07-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

24.7.2007 Tuesday

after my parents went back.....i went around melbourne with ian visiting most places in CBD including gardens, most of the exhibitions and others. One of the thing that will make me miss melbourne is the exhibitions that they have here....All are very interesting and its free...They have a lot of theatre show which msia don't. I'm excited about the Phantom of the Opera which i'm goin to watch on 14th aug. It will be a unforgetable experience. I hope i will have a chance to watch something in Hammer Hall - the very exclusive and grand theatre...its really nice...

All these things and places are making me fall in love more to Melbourne.. i really love this place and the people here. I really like the lifestyle here. I can say i already adopt the lifestyle here as part of me ::-- sitting under the warm sun in a cold day drinking coffee and chat non stop, eating delicious cakes at the river side with coffee in the evening, walking by beach as the soft breeze blows, eating breakfast by the dock, taking a walk with lovely friends at nite in the most beautiful place in melbourne.....etc.........all these are unforgetable...and i love it !!! i really enjoy alot ...

knowing that i only have one month left is really a disaster for me....i felt my heart was heavier by 10kg... so hard to leave ....omgg!!! how ??? somebody tell me how!!! all of them are just so precious to me...especially people whom i hang out with always ....will really miss their accompaniment... :(

Shrine of Remembrance

and i went to HAMMER HALL, ST KILDA .... a very very exclusive theatre in melbourne which presents fantastic theatre show and dances. i wish i can go to at least one event before i go back ...see how luxurious the interior is....how nice if i can sit inside the hall enjoying the performance.

SkIIng TrIp - Mt bULLeR

2007-07-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

wooowooo....... its snow trip again !!!!! Mt BuLLer - 19th July 2007 - My beloved daddy's birthday - 1st year in Australia, up on snow mountain...

this year skiing trip was FANTASTIC .... (( and the main reason is -- i dun fall so much!!! )) hahahaha!!! finally i know how to ski....so happy !

This trip was really nice...my family enjoy it alot. 1st we went to a 2 hours lesson which helps alot, then we went up ourselves skiing from the top all the down....fuuiiiyooohhh!!! LOVE it....love the scenary up there...its was really cold, snow falling, ice smashing into my face, wind blowing strongly...We had a new layer of snow that day coz there was a heavy fall the night b4. So the snow was really soft and nice....

i went all the way...down.....ski........n ski...the feeling is so nice ...feels like i'm flying...hahaha!!! but i fall once, which is on purpose, and hurt my butt...oouucchchhh!!!

I WOULD love to go again if i have a chance...

Sydney Trip

2007-07-26T20:15:00.000+08:00

... sydney trip ...

12th to 16th July 2007

i STARTED my journey in australia with Sydney and ending it with Sydney as well....??? wat izit to do with Sydney ??? hahaa!!! but i love it .... this sydney trip was wonderful as well...Each time i go to sydney, there must be something that i wan to go back for the next time. The last time was Hurricanes - fantastic ribs.... this time is Lowenbrau - fantastic german food with very nice beers. I just love it !!!! i love the harbour brige, the opera house, darling harbour and circular quay....oh, bondi as well...the scenaries and views are just brilliant and amazing. I wou't get bored of just looking at it.

Another reason that i would always love goin sydney is there are alot of FUN & LOVING people there. They are just great people ....i miss u guys!!! - choi, mk, kenneth and gf, vicki, amisha, others and some new frens that i met this year ...thanks alot....u all will always be in my memories. I wonder when is the next time i will meet them again. So pictures are really important !!!

in my corner

HapPiest MoMent...

2007-07-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

finally i'm back writing down the stories of my life which will give me lots of lovely memories when i'm back in msia....

time is ticking every second and every minute...its one week after my graduation - i cannot believe it !!! so fast !!! my graduation was on 18th july 2007 - 12pm - Hawthorn Town Hall. I'm so excited about it, so worried yet so happy that this day finally came and i get to wear the squarish hat on my head.... can't believe it !!! its ALL by the Grace of God... Deep down in my heart flows out the joy which u can c thru my smile :)

Its my BIG DAY !!! i was so nervous the nite b4....can't really lay my head to sleep...so i got up b4 my alarm clock rang and start preparing - choosing wat to wear to make up to hair do ... finally to wat shoes should i put on... :) my dad kept sounding :" ok ...its time to leave... ". We got out and reach hawthorn town hall ard 1045am. Without hesitating, i went up to put on my graduation robe and mortarboard. On the way up into the room, i was greeted by lovely swinburne graduation committees who gave me a big hug and words of congrats. My heart was instantly cheered up ... :)

not long after, fellow classmates start to arrive...and its time for pictures. I'm really happy, really really happy...erhmm....its just .....HAPPY....

The ceremony starts at 12pm sharp. All graduands were gathered in lines and ready to march into the hall. We were led by a man blowing the scotish pipe accompanied by a group of quartets. After all the long winded speeches, its time for the confering of Awards ....Deng deNG dEng!!!!! But it was really short....we studied for one whole year but it only takes 2 minutes to get on stage and received the precious scroll that we all wish for.

But it worth it all...all the hard work, effort, sleepless nites, preassure, tension ....all paid back with the over suprising results - 3HD n 1D ....really never ever expected that i will get these results.....i cant even believe it with my own eyes...its was just so so so shock!!!
I remember that morning 7th July 2007, ian woke me up with a sms and i can't get back to sleep .... my heart pump so fast and i was so scared...this semester was all by the mercy and grace of God. Everything just went tru rushingly but smoothly. When i open swinburne page and log in ......the results was already there immediately without me clicking on the results page. My eyes was driven to the grades column straight away and saw the HD,HD,D,HD...i was confused and was asking myself :" am i at the correct page? izit mine? or did i went into somebody else page? " then i checked my subjects and all the details .....Oh yea .....its mine!! OMG!!! i started laughing and laughing quietly bcoz my housemate are still asleep. My heart was just filled with gratitudes to the Almighty God. I, once again encounter God's grace in my life and my Faith in Him increased. The funny thing is....when i tell my elder sister about it...she was shocked....she asked me :" y are u so happy when u only get a D and with so many D?" hahahahaha!!! i laughed again.....then i told her the grading system here is not like in msia.. We have only HD,D,C,P...hahaha!!! funny ~~~~

But i think the happiest person is my parents ....they must be really proud of their lovely daughters. One of the biggest comfort to parents is to c their children succeed and completed their studies .... i think they are really happy....

Essence of hOME

2007-07-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

My online friend gave me a quote which i think its quite true....

"try to live your life by not expect the outcome but enjoy the the progress"

These few days i've been enjoying the essence of my house. Hahahaha!!! i've got nothing to do at home but to watch dramas and play pirates of the carribean in ps2 - not too bad tho; not tat i like it but just to kill time. Other than tat, i will spent my time cooking and washing up.
Come to think of it,i dun spent money if i be a good gal n stayed home.hahaha!!! life isn't that boring rite? its alrite.....just bear with it a while more...I'm getting more excited to go sydney with my family and my graduation is coming!!!

enjoy the days i have in melbourne b4 goin back...i would really miss here.

but there are somethings that i'm committed to which i need to attend to back in msia. That is y i say sometimes you just cant get what u wanted and put everything into one big perfect puzzle. hope that if its God's will i will for sure be back.

wonderful time & wonderful dinner

2007-06-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

.....thanks seb..

Dinner in Babarino's + Wong was just fantastic. Its really fabulous.....good good good!! bravo !!

....this restaurant serves fusion food. We had lamb from grill and spicy seafood pot and a dozen of oyster on tray. 6 raws and 6 with bbq baked cheese with ham.....look at that man .....dun c that it looks so delicious...raw oyster is tough man!!! not easy ....the 1st one was so so so hard to just get it over n get the taste away from my mouth. hahaha!!!(seb was laughing at my expression) It was challengin tho...nice ...i thought i can but i actually dun really enjoy it. I still prefer the baked one...so much nicer.hehehe!!! seb asked me to give it a 2nd chance...so i did....but this time i added more lemon in it. it doesn't taste so bad...hahaha!!! i quickly swallow it...

another amazing thing was, i was still eating where seb adi stop and give up...its alot alot alot of food for 2 of us...freaking full but satisfy. quite scary ya ....eat so much yet so small...where are all my food ???

~~~~CHEERS FOR THE NICE FOOD!!! yay!!!!!

the stillness of night

2007-06-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

In the stillness night,

when all already deep asleep,

tug nicely and warm under their blankie,

my heart thinks....

In this world of business

where everybody busy achieving their goals in life,

or just filling their life with the everyday routine,

my heart thinks...

Try to listen to the stillness of night

find the peaceful side of the day

which actually is the start of each day.

All of sudden,

silence feel my mind, my heart and my soul,

feeling confused,

feeling lonely,

feeling lost....

Where is my direction?

where should i head to?

where should i stand?

wat are my goals?

wat are my callings?

wat is my purpose of life?

wat should i do?

All these questions

been in my head for ages,

i know i'm trying to store it up,

trying to hide from it,

but its still there,

at the back of my head.

can't run away....

eventhough there are

friends and housemates,

brothers and sisters,

to laugh and to enjoy,

food to fill my forever calling tummy,

shoes shop that i can enter,

clothes that i can try on,

.... Still ....

i know

and i know

my heart is still waiting

waiting to have

decisions, assurance, directions

God....

tell me God.....

lead me Lord....

guide me Holy Spirit....

will u please.....

.... i pray ....

Me and the days

2007-06-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

On 20th June 2007

iAN made lasagna. Me just help and wash up ...isshhh!!! but anyway ....this is the 1st time i do it.... not too hard ...must try it again next time.

On the 23th June 2007

We went to Red Ants and eat ....fantastic...you people should go there n try...its one of the best in Melbourne. Its located in chinatown, opposite shark fin house. i duno wat street is tat tho..?? hahahha!!!

On the 24th June 2007

Its a happy day...me n ee went to bridge road for some shopping after church but unfortunately all the shops closed b4 we actually finish walking. So we ended up buying nothing. So we pop into DFO and saw GUESS is on sales .....SALESSSS!!!! the big word attracted us to go in and guess wat we bought.... a pair of GUESS jeans for only $........... i would only say its the happiest thing and the most worth of all shopping that i did. Me n ee were like so po ....so so so happy..We shop till they are closed. Later on we walked to docklands to explore. I actually fall in love in that place. Its really fantastically beautiful ....with the dock....the ships.....the shops.....the place is just so romantic and sentimental. How i wish that i will have a chance to stay there. May be that should be my target. hahahaa!!! piakkkk~~~ wake up pauline....dun dream ....:( hahaha!!!

3 HaPpY FRi3dns OuTiNg

2007-06-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

3 happy friends outing ____:::____:::____

16th June 2007 (Saturday)

I woke up early in the morning at 11am and go for music interview which is at 12pm. i dunno y i was so nervous..not as if its my 1st time...may be bcoz i've not been touching my piano and practicing it.Those songs are not hard but its just ..... lost touch!! but thank God the interview this week was only verbal interview, next week is the practical one - gives me one more week to prepare but i really dunno where to get a keyboard to practice. i very pai seh to practice in church....ma fun leh ...i dunno i'm ready for this saturday anot .... anybody have a keyboard?

ee and vera went pick up the car and drive to church to pick me up after my interview....when i c the car ....omg!!! so so so cuteeeeeee!!!!! so so so cute!!! i like the car...alot...hope it will be in msia soon...hahahha!!!! oh ...i havent say wat car is that ....??----- NISSAN TIIDA. hahhaha!!! so so so happy ~~

the 3 lil daring gals..juz printed the map from internet and drive all the way to sorrento...dunno whether we will reach there anot. just go only ..... ee driving and i sat beside looking at the map directing, vera fall asleep at the back after eating her KFC. After goin out of the freeway, entering into those small roads....we start to a bit out of the direction that is written on the map. We cant find those roads or streets that is written there. We kept turning back from one end to another ...n ended up we just look at road signs and drive.." WHERE is the beach???" we cant even see the water.....iishhhh!!! Finally we decided to just stop by the hotspring to have a look and ask for directions. Its a nice place...the natural hotspring in melbourne. We wanted to try the public or private bath.....and the massage or facial....but ee dun wan to ....die die also she dun wan...so me n vera just walked away from the reception desk sadly :( thinking:"must come to try one day..."hahaha!!!! we took some brocheurs and leave the place. Next destination - borneo maze. We drive there and found out its closed...:(:( " where are we suppose to go next?turning right or left??" we wan to go to the beach....!!!! we just enter the eagle ridge golf club and ask an uncle for direction...thank God he gave us a clear direction and finally we can see the water!!! hahahha!!!!

we are just at the right time to enjoy the beautiful sunset.....so amazing and its just so fantastic to walk along the dock and enjoy the cold breeze that hit ur face gently, looking at the endless wide sea with clear water and the most important is who are u with ....hehehe!!! we took pictures as u can c .... and we met an old couple on the way ....so we ask them how to get to port sea. we drove abit further to port sea and sorrento to have a look. we wanted to look for some nice cafe beside the beach and enjoy a bottle of nice wine and chat all night. but ....unfortunately....this is australia....all shop close after 5pm....iishhhh!!! geramnya....so boring.....nothing is open. So we just stop beside the road, change our shoes and went to the beach side to take pictures again. After finish snapping some beautiful shots, we get in the car n drive all the way back to melbourne. Now is my turn to drive...we really very terror la....so geng la .....we din refer to the map oh!!

Finally we reach melbourne at about 730pm...we went to AGUNG restaurant in Glenferie - indonesian cuisine....if u wan to get a satisfy meal....u can go for it ....its really good!! we order sup buntut, ikan bakar kalisan, and ayam panggang with fantastic homemade sambal...very 'chi kik' and it builts my apetite.

After makan, we went to safeway to buy rice and stuff....since we got the car...just buy heavy stuff.hahaha!!! then we came back home...spent ard 20 min in finding a space to park our car...we turn so so so many rounds ard our house but still cant get one...all bcoz of its a clubbing nite. We got frustrated about it and ended up goin into DFO car park. u know how much we paid for it ?? we thought was only $8 bcoz its written there night parking is flat rate $8. but it turned out to be $28 .... me n ee were so shocked....nvm la ....so we just pay n went to church.

17th June 2007 (Sunday)

Its a rainy day - not a good day to do outdoor activities, cant enjoy the scenary.
So we went to chadstone to shop since i've never been there after about one year in melbourne. hahaha!!! coz i think there's nothing special about it. 1u is even much bigger than it and i can find those shops in the city too. y need to take train and change to bus to just get there n shop. i bought a pair a jeans from esprit for only 39.90 and a cute t-shirt from a children shop for 10.00. the size of the t-shirt is XS.hahaha!!!

For dinner, we book OLD KINGDOM - a place to eat peking duck with a special style. Its worth to try at least once la...not to say fantastic but its interesting to try. Its another good and satisfied meal. I've been eating nice and big meal this few days...especially dinner. We chat about a lot of wat if....this ? wat if that happened...? i'm like the criminal sitting between both of them, keep questioning me about wat if...but it was nice la....we drove back after tat. Thank God this time there is parking space just right in front of our house.

The End Of The Day ....

18th June 2007

Thank God its another beautiful morning, but something really bad happened in melbourne. its among the worst for the last 5 yrs in melbourne. We woke up at 815am and got prepared to sent vera to uni for her winter class...and pick up ian on the way and went back to city to return the car. After everything, ee went to work. Me n ian went ard looking for a place to have breakfast.

We've got a sms from tince saying that there is a gunshot juz happened in william st and flinders lane. one killed and 2 injured. i believed the situation at that very moment is really chaotic. And this killer is on the run....he is still not caught. They only found his gun near bond st. Isn't it scary??? all the banks was close temporarily....until further notice. Can't believe there is such case happening here in melbourne...and its just near my house. But i was not really alarmed by it...my dad sms me n said: dun go out temporary becoz they have not catch the gunman. Ee's mum even ask her not to go to work. My heart was thinking : anything can happen any time any where. Its really important to commit everything to God everyday and ASK GOD to protect our goin out and coming in...must remember to do it everyday oh !!! ok...

NOOOO...!!! days are getting closer

2007-06-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

day by day, months by months.....counting the days tat are left for me to say goodbye to melbourne is goin to come soon....wuahwuahaha:(

can somebody help me to make time slower or wait till i had enough of everything ...???

i'm gona miss everything and everybody here...
miss the shopping here, cakes, food, most of all the people here....
i love all of u .....u all are just so nice ~~~

My beloved friends, i will try to make full use of the time here in melbourne...spending more precious time with all of u ....

muaaksss...XOXO !!!

finally

2007-06-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ...finally .....

i get to watch the Pirates of the Caribbean at World'S eND 2007

Will Turner (Orlando Bloom), Elizabeth Swann (Keira Knightley) are allied with Captain Barbossa (Geoffrey Rush) in a desperate quest to free Captain Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) from his mind-bending trap in Davy Jones' locker, while the terrifying ghost ship, The Flying Dutchman and Davy Jones, under the control of the East India Trading Company, wreaks havoc across the Seven Seas. Navigating through treachery, betrayal and wild waters, they must forge their way to exotic Singapore and confront the cunning Chinese Pirate Sao Feng (Chow Yun-Fat). Now headed beyond the very ends of the earth, each must ultimately choose a side in a final, titanic battle, as not only their lives and fortunes, but the entire future of the freedom-loving Pirate way, hangs in the balance.

many people told me its not nice ....but i think its alrite...not too bad ...not as bad as i expected....may be i like pirates ~~~ Keira Knightley is really pretty, very pretty....orlando blooms is so leng chai too....don't u think they are just perfect couple..hahaha!!!but i dun think there will be pirates 4.....too bad~~how sad....

In the middle of the show, my stomach start growling ...so so so hungry...my heart was thinking : when is the show goin to finish? quick...... it all ended at about 4pm +
And we went to chappellis to have some cake...( ( cookies and cream cheesecake ) ) so creamy and thick....i can't finish the whole piece, ended up making ian eat..haha!!! he loves cake so he won't mind i think...After cake, mr.ian got to rush for work, me n albert ended up nothing to do ....went to uni watch some movies and can't stand it anymore.....went to evonne place to play cho tai dee again...hahaha!!! wu liao ~~~

on the way back to the pizza's shop, i trip again....on the same leg....i duno y, everytime walk beside albert sure will trip, he la......all his fault, bad luck~~~nvm ....i still can walk...not bleeding....hahhaa!!! we get free pizza from ian and we walk along chapel street, sit infront of the town hall....and eat our hot and yummy pizza...good job ian~~~nice pizza....but our hands are freeking cold while eating ....freeking cold.....but nicee~~~ good experience....

my new moto

2007-06-11T14:44:00.001+08:00

::MOTO::

to Do anything,
to Go anywhere,
to Eat anything,
to Try EVERYTHING..
with anybody......

things in my current list :
- travel :- gold coast, sydney, mt buller for skiing, spa in mornington, phantom of the
opera...docklands, park, the catholic church near flagstaff station...etc
- food :- korean bbq, pecking duck, the lane near my house(duno wat izit call?), torimatsu
- clubbing, bar hopping, shopping, buy brands which i cant get in msia..
- much more others...cant think of it now....

In this 2 months that i have in melbourne, i wan to meet as much people i can, go to anywhere with anybody....just wana try everything that i havent try b4.just call me .....i will sure go ...if my bank account allows me to.hahahaha!!!!

i'm gonna miss everything here.....miss everybody here alot alot alot......miss the places here...~~~i dun wan to go back ~~~ ::((((

The beginning of full time holiday

2007-06-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

THE BEGINNING OF MY FULL TIME HOLIDAY

OOO....party night in my house with

beverages : Bicardi, pineapple, sprite, santan...

attendance : eelain3, roy, vera, hong, albert, ian and me

time : started from 10pm - 2am(me,ian n albert), 3am + (ee, roy), 5/6am + (hong,vera)

We waited for ian to come to start the game....he made some cocktail drink with bicardi, pineapple,with santan in it....added abit of sugar, lime, and sprite...not too bad~~~albert drank and started to get red adi ....soon after tat, we started playing indian poker....crazy game~~~introduced by eelaine - everybody will be given a card and whoever has the smallest card will drink.Everybody will have a turn to pour something into the cup, either bircardi (fruit juice) or sprite. These people are really terrible....when its my turn to drink, they keep pouring bicardi....when i tot it will not be me, i pour bicardi in too....thinking that other ppl will drink...ended up ....me drinking again....~~~ shit~~~~~haih~~~ tats y play safe....just pour sprite next time.hahaha!!!! So ended up, i drank alot .....is really quite alot...but not till really hang over. IT'S FUN!!!~~~

The next morning, sunday 10.6.06 - i woke up at 9am because my head was aching. i can't sleep anymore....i woke up and make myself tea and honey. i woke the 2 guys up too ...hahah!!! we had a bit of chat together and we decided to go out for breakfast while waiting for the others to wake up. Its a beautiful sunday with blue sky, warm sun, nice weather - just perfect to go out and have a walk, enjoy the day....

as we walk along lygon street looking at those italian restaurant serving very nice breakfast make my stomach awake...my stomach is knocking on my door already. we finally decided to settle down in Brunetti for breakfast and cake. I ordered zuchinni soup with bread, ian ordered brunetti big breakfast with coffee, albert ordered some kind of sandwich....all are delicious i think. But unfortunately, my apetite went down alot due to the stress of these 3 weeks.....so sad~~~i need to built my apetite back to eat alot of delicious food.

after having a perfect breakfast, we went around looking for the global rex warehouse sales in roslyn street.we walked really far finding it, but bought nothing... so sad:( not giving up hope, we went to DFO to shop (me-hoping to get something), but ended still nothing. We then pop over to Greccos in Crown to meet up with ee. Mr.Ian, cake lover is already craving for his cake and a cup of coffee since morning. Anyway, I tried mango passionfruit cheesecake. Its fantastic...brilliant....fall in love with it....go try it !!

wow...its all finish

2007-06-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

wow....how can i believe that i finally finish everthing...OMGGG!!!! can somebody tell me IT IS!!! like something impossible....cannot believe it ....time flies......so fast ......
its the time to SLEEP, PLAY, EAT, SHOP, CLUB, TRAVEL and GO ALL OUT....i just wan to release ....so so so happy..cant explain the feeling...u know it, rite?

dear frens, i wan to take this chance to thank all of u who gave support to me, eventhough its just a phrase "all the best for ur finals"..or even ask "how is ur finals going?" ...thank u so much....means that u care .....i love u all....
Of coz....my great God...who hold my hand ...and uphold me and keep pushing me up when i feel like i cannot take it anymore....thank God...!!!!

June the 8th, 2007 - the memorable day ----exciting, fantastic, wonderful, beautiful, fun ....
1- ee n roy birthday 2. Everything is all DONE!!! i'm graduate-finally---my bachelor....
wow!! i'm really so happy.....Ee and roy is happy too. She got a GUESS bag ...$149, jealousnya, how nice if i got it. We also make a puzzle card for her...and ...and ..and she got a pineapple too, hahaha!!! When she opened the box expecting it to be something, but it came out to be pineapple....her mind was thinking:"wat these people are doing to me? sure got some trick 1!!! " Her face looks disappointed but she got to pretend to like it....hhahah!!! how sad~~~ :P In the end after cleanning, we finally gave her the GUESS bag..is not the one which she wanted but i think she love it too...hahaha!!! And for this special occasion, we have a special guest from monash cell, our vip guest....jan!!!! so happy to c her in our cell....having so much fun!!!

After cell group, we went out again ...to Mac Brenner in QV. We had 2 browniesm 2 waffle, 2 suckao, and one venezuela dark chocolate - all on Ee the birthday girl...hahaha!!! but one of the brownies is on me to hong ...bcoz of his playful mouth...to shut his mouth off...i promise to treat him brownies from max brenner....but he's still teasing me. So i gonna be smarter now, just let them tease as much as they want, save my money!!! hahaha!!! Its never gonna be enough of fun. So we planned to go back home and drink and play cho tai dee. We went around looking for beer, wine and stuff...but all shops are closed becoz its near 12am...On the way goin to IGA, i suddenly trip and knelt down on my knees, ouuccchh~~~~ luckily it wasn't that hard and i had my stocking on, its not bleeding! haha!! we walk one big round looking for drinks but ended up back to square 1...:( how sad....so hong and albert went back and 3 happy friends and roy walk back to 803/639, Little Bourke Street again. We are tired after one long day...but we just dun wan to go to sleep. c how notty are we....:P:P:P:P all of us stay up till about 4am in the morning chatting, buzzing songs, and cho dee for few rounds. I told ee :" when we are rushing for assignments, we stay up till so late as well, and we complained that we wan to sleep...now we have all the time to sleep, we still laze around till 4am"....hahaa!!! doinkkk~~~ question mark?????

yOUr GrAcE is SufFicient 4 mE

2007-06-01T17:48:00.018+08:00

this few days was torturing.....rushing for deadlines after deadlines.....sacrificing nights after nights in uni till late --- ended up missing the last train and need to take taxi back - wasted $15 ...haih~~~ but wat to do ...??? no car , tired, hungry, sleepy....
but come to see the completion of those 2 most stressful subject, i really feel much relieve. i'm satisfy with the final result of it....i really learned a lot alot of things through all my fantastic friends. i really enjoy the company of these friends-seeing everybody is putting in their hard work to strive to finish up the task and having kind and helpful friends around to patiently teach u how to do this and that while they also need to finish up theirs.....wow!!!they are really !!!FANTASTIC!!!

2 more to go ....just 2 more ......really tak tahan adi...sometimes just feel like breaking down.God...help me !!! give me strength God...these 2 weeks i've been touch by this verse, it really builds me up alot. i keep on claim on this verse..."Your Grace is sufficient for me, Your strength is made perfect when i'm weak." God's words really have the power to comfort, to encourage, and to give u peace. I really need to thank God for sustaining me in this period of time. He is really so so so GREAT!!!

remarks for exhibition design

2007-06-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

erhmm...overall was good ....ticks was all between good , very good and excellent....quite happy and satisfy about it...thank God ..:) at least can give myself a pad on the shoulder-spent sleepless nite for it .... BUT....of coz there are some comment from lecturer. She like the artistic plan that i have in my visual diary compare to the color lighting plan on my board bcoz the curve line with the white background brings out my idea stronger.~~~yea~~~true also..

Her comments was :

poetic and narration and cultured - complete + strong

sound + symbolically strong for mood and model study

overall - minimal dividers work well-sensitive approach to content and directior-poetic-beautiful themes tackled with adequate detail + well represented. your process is evident. Good Work!!!

Exhibition design

2007-05-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

Entrance

End of Summer - walking in the exhibition space

An Autumn Afternoon

Trademark area

This is my exhibition design project in this final semester in Swinburne. My director is Yasujiro Ozu...i din even knew him at all...i think nobody know him but actually he has quite a great impact to japanese film industry.~~~ watever~~~

My design intention :

As you walk down the stairs, one will enter into a totally different environment which gives you a sense of nature with different seasons. In this exhibition, visitors will get to walk through from one season to another base on three movies which are End of Summer, An Autumn Afternoon and Equinox Flower. Instead of being separated by internal walls, partitions made from partly opaque and translucent printed fabrics are pulled across the exhibition space with numerous backlit components. The whole interior space is demarcated by color lights on the floor to create the mood of the space. Apart from visual experience, visitor will also get to hear and experience the settings used in the film. Lastly, visitors get to write their wishes and leave comments in the wishing hut called Ema. Visitor will once again capture the beauty of nature in the four seasons at the end of the journey.

well....i spent sleepless nights and whole lots of effort and money to get the 3d perspective and the presentation board done....

thanks to all frens who had helped me a lot in this...especially albert and hong...thanks guy ...u guys are great!!! really~~~

not forgetting my dear kalvin who also gave me a lot of moral and emotional support...thanks for cheering me up always when i'm down and picking me up when i'm falling....muakkkss!!!

my heart had not been in peaceful mode for the past 2 weeks...its sort of like turning up n down...just cant settle down, keep on thinking wat to do next and wat havent been done...omgg!!! i really dun feel good and i really need a break .....bring me away !!!!

anyway ...i need to jia you oh ...my final final final last of semester of all...thank GOd ....:)

stresss.....

2007-05-28T16:03:00.000+08:00

hey everybody ...

here is my new blog..just started learning...haha!!!
it had been the most tiring week for me....as usual when finals and deadline all comes together. But actually i'm quite excited about it bcoz it's the last of ALL ...isn't wonderful...:)
For those who still have few more semester to go ....aja aja...
I really hope everything will finish asap....got to get back to work ...cya !!!